Envy

I'm actually envious, and a slight grudgy towards you because you get to see him more often and i guess you might be the reason why i get stuck with utter disappointment...

But i guiltily rejoice at the fact that i've been around longer, and that i have amore secured future with them than you do.

on paper you are there.

my life is not written down. it can be changed as freely as the air..

what could be sweeter?

than being called a best friend...

sorry

i went overboard.

forgive me.

I haven't been a good person altogether.

i'll stay true to my words.

i am so sorry...

please...

10.+9.

10/10/10 10:10:10

=)

today's not this date, but its a nice date and time to look forward to. =p

there's nothing special done today, but i want to keep believing that today is special anyway.

lets fly.

with

'we should get out of the house as soon as possible'

'come live with me'

shiawase.

making dress now.

getting emotional.

lets focus on the bright side..

youre there.

you and everyone else.

[<3]

spammers

i realize there have been a lotta spammers on my tagboard and comments section...

i thought of removing my tagboard, but i cant be bothered.

i will have to put one up back again anyway

and as if anyone ever reads this anymore.

so there's no point xD

...

NEVER WAIT FOR THINGS TO HAPPEN. ALWAYS MAKE THINGS HAPPEN.

lets live by that.

less thinking of how people judge you.
dont await their reaction

dont even expect it.

now where was i... oh yeah... i have about 2 hours to do homework, then i have to go out...

JCG meeting

i cant tear myself away from them

and frankly, a portion of the reason is because izzat is there.

and i believe that there's a reason why i fell in love with him. could be just him, could be cause my life is not over with jcg, and i have to learn more.. might be cause of the things in between that i need to experience with him.

everything happens for a reason... but if you make things happen, you should have a reason too.

whims are nice, but only if you dont risk anything too important.

well, i know what i'm talking about so thats enough.

i need to do my home work. goodbye~~

Hi

I want to get back into the habit of writing and speaking my mind.

I'll be blunt. cause i doubt anyone reads here anymore. =P

I'm sure though, in the future, i'd be embarrassed to have written so bluntly. hahaha ...

lets see...

Lets sum up my life so far.

-I'm 19, going 20. OMG WHAT i'm TURNING 20 IN A FEW MONTHS?! SHEEP.

-In a stable relationship, i finally found a guy i feel i can settle with. I don't care what you think, I wanna marry him and he feels the same.

-Currently studying fashion in NAFA... (this just means i don't have income..lol)

-at the moment: facebooking, doing homework.

-New friends @NAFA, getting in touch with some old ones... keeping current ones @RP.

think thats it in a nutshell...

referring back to "sheep" i typed in caps above, its supposed to be a euphemism for 'shit'... the irony is that i have to read a textile book on wool.(Y). haha

allright. lets get down to business, for now, i shall write about the things i'm bothered with, and things that i am happy with...

Things bothering me at the moment:

-Homework. there's a bunch of it. cant really call it homework, but its an ongoing project. shit i havent finish reading n cutting stuff...and drawing and coloring and mindmapping @_@

-boyfriend. again i get frustrated with some things he does. -unfair rant alert. i'm frustrated at the moment so this is just me getting things off my chest-hilighthiddentextbelow

you have time to watch a video on facebook but didn't have time to reply my simple message... if youre busy you could have just told me you will be busy today, and will call me later or something. it jsut feels like you dont return the same amount of feelings i constantly have for you... but then again it might be my problem. i'm a helpless romantic(quoted shaa). i crave every bit of interaction between us. i dont want to feel cheap or feel like i'm loving some inanimate object that doesnt return my feelings.. i know you love me, but would it hurt to put some effort and show it a little more? little gestures help. smsing randomly. BEING the FIRST to sms me in the morning, or call... which you did in some point of time...then you didn't anymore. dont give me 'i'm busy in the morning' i'm happy with a simple ohayou in the morning. a little attention to detail would help too. ask me where i am what i'm doing... if not, leave random notes on my wall, comment on my status or something... you haven't done that in a very long while...T_T
listen to me. i've been asking you to do this one thing for quite a while. now that you dont have much credit in your prepaid number, you should do what i have been asking you to. i dont see a reason why not. unless you dont want to hear from me. in that case fine. i have decided to be the inactive one already. if you dont contact me, i 'll do the same. and i wont send you morning messages for now either. see if you notice. i bet you wont.

right now you're busy. I understand that perfectly. with FYP and other stuff. that is why i chose not to bring this up to you yet. and i'm not expecting you do do all these at once either. just doing 1 sweet thing a day will do....

being too nice and understanding hurts me sometimes.

one request though, can i ask you to be a little more selfish with me? its ok to not like ppl touching me. its ok to tear me away from a guy friend of mine. its ok to hurt me a little. i act fragile so you'll take a look at me and comfort me. little selfish things you do like to not want me to go somewhere farther away from you, just makes me feel wanted. and its a nice feeling.

-end of rant-

-facebook group for JCG. gosh.

-i miss jcg T_T

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its unfair to post something i'm unhappy with without writing about things that made me smile recently....

things i'm happy with...

silhouettes done, got a good nap. boyfriend called earlier, watched some good cartoons read some long pages of what i'm supposed to,found a good deal on a netbook, understood very well in the pattern making class. found good friends in NAFA. =)

lavs

tata

thats all for now. I need to get back to work

furniture

there i am, being influenced again.
using what i have seen before to connect with whatever i'm experiencing now.

thats normal right? LOL

but anyway.

there was a time i didnt ask you all out to some event.

and now i want to.

and there's no reply

so.

sigh.

dunno la

hope you guys dont blame me later.

twice in a night have i wanted to ask for some replies...

but almost none came
to those who did, thanks.

i DO understand that you guys have other bunch of things on your mind that i cannot fully comprehend at the moment.

i choose not to ask because i might just get confused, then confuse you back.

*shrug*

ok. thats it. bad feelings laid out. now for what happened earlier today =D

morning>

Dini and i went for a job interview for a job as plane cleaners
we were there at changi airport an hour early. =0

we talked, we lolled around... then went for the interview

we chose the 11pm-8am fulltime shift thing.

we are yet to receive calls from the employer. LOL

ok so actually, when we were there, there's this kinda cool looking guy. damn funny.
i was kinda laughing while dini n i were filling up the forms. him talking to the interviewer is just somehow funny to me.

anyway. the interviewer looked at my form...then at dini's form...and thought she was looking at the wrong form cause both our addresses were the same xD! LOLOLX

OHH YOU SISTERS AARRHH? LOL cute sia aunty...

when she saw dini's age, she kinda... ehhh...16 ar? cannot le...

then we left.

DINI: =(

then i sent dini to cck and headed to RP

then saw wj. then walk halfway then he saw his gf then they walk away, tehn at library he sit with me for a bit...then he went homee.

then i'm alone now.

then dini told me the aunty called her ans said dini can actually work at the airport with me,

@_@

yeah. you guys read also like... what this girl toking?

lols

i'm just blabberin

kthxbye xDDDD lols

Ninny

is cute.

ahahhaha

random.

play DS some more. =D xD

stupid

dumb bishies.

how dare most of you have white/light colored hair!

how dare you act like...like... THAT

...die

i cant.

i cant move back down there.

stupid show. LOL